Monday, August 23, 2010

The Darkness

The dreadful darkness that time and again casts its shadow over me…It has become a frequent visitor and accompanies many of the setting evenings when I fail to keep my mind sufficiently guarded with the mundane activities of life. I desperately try to fight it back with fresh air and bright lights but it refuses to leave. The darkness reveals some known facts about the pain and miseries of life (and death) with such intensity that it almost feels as if I am living them that very moment. The futility of life and the inevitability of death, both stare at my face at the same time. And the impact is more that I can endure. But are not life and death the two opposite extremes of one’s world? So why should both cause similar feelings of such severe depression? In fact is any of the two such a terrible act of nature in true sense? I try to go deep into it and understand these extremes better. I haven’t been able to do so yet. But I do hope someday I would come to terms with, even befriend this darkness before it engulfs me forever.

4 comments:

Harmanjit Singh said...

If to be aware of the past and the future is a human faculty, then the following:

The darkness reveals some known facts about the pain and miseries of life (and death) with such intensity that it almost feels as if I am living them that very moment.

is to be a human whose awareness has become too developed to allow him/her to be light-hearted in the present, no?

Do things with your hands, somebody advised me. Physicality can bring you back to the present without the heavy darkness of the future.

Susan said...

Doing things with hands surely helps...writing makes a difference too.

I believe as the awareness increases, light-heartedness should be revived.

Tushar said...

i liked it very much.
such writings come in a sad mood, but to portray that sadness in words is really a relief. :)
nyc

Susan said...

Thanks Tushar. I guess it is easier to write when you feel intensely about something.